This week, one of my childhood legends took his own life. Robin Williams was a man who made me laugh to the point of tears. He had such an amazing talent to evoke happiness in others. He also had everything we may think one would want in life: A family, success, money, achievements. From the outside, he seemed to have a sense of purpose in this world.

So why would someone like Robin take his own life?

We can blame his addictions, his depression or any other label that gives reason to his story. The one thing though that rises up within me as I see a man who seemed to have it all in all areas of his life, but couldn’t find his own happiness to continue on is that he didn’t have himself.

How many celebrities, stars or well-known people do we have to endure taking their own lives before we realize this truth? The truth: The goals and things that we spend our life planning for are not what we are here for. The things we think we desiree in what these people have or the way they live, are essentially a false target.

Furthermore, how do we release ourselves from being stuck in needing and chasing what we perceive to get from achieving these goals? How do we let go of thinking it’s because of achieving these goals that we have success, freedom, and love?

I had a goal to make a certain amount of money, I did, I then felt free and happy for a moment because of my achievements, but then what…

I had desire to find that perfect partner, I did. As she showed up perfectly as I expected, I felt love and was loved. But then what…

I chased success in my business, I created it and felt like I was someone. But then what…

For myself, firstly I had to realize that everything I was chasing was associated with my identity. As long as I chased anything that was related to feeling like I existed because of who I think I am, I knew I wouldn’t be free.

It’s like I was addicted to the injections of achieving these false targets. Beneath it all, I knew there was something else. I could feel that there was a truer, more authentic way of being.

It existed within that void I felt within me. It felt empty and scary to dive into because it was unknown to that which I knew.

I thought I felt trapped because of what I knew of myself, what I knew of how my life worked, what I did, or who was.

I felt trapped because I didn’t know anything else. All I knew was how I survived in being attached to what I did and had become. I remember reaching a point of depression in my own story where I felt I had no other option but to end my life. At the same time, I came to realise it was only the person I thought I was that wanted to die.

‘Anything in my life that made me feel something because of what was happening in my life, tricked me into thinking it was because who I was and what I did, I was then never free to simply be myself because I couldn’t let go of all I had become. If I felt to follow my heart and be something different, I couldn’t. So I suppressed what I truly felt, and became depressed all for the fear of losing everything that was not me.’

For those that feel it—and we all do—you know that, within yourself, is a way of being that does not need a reason to justify being alive. That feeling knows itself to already be alive.

If we can start to enjoy living for simply the love of being alive, we will free ourselves from the torture of thinking we need a reason to exist, a reason to be loved.

Then, maybe, instead of seeking out love in life, we will give love to the life we live in knowing we already are all that we seek.

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