In following the feeling, without reason (because I simply love to) my mind can so quickly look to build stories and give reasons to justify what I am doing. In other words, place judgment upon my experience.

A few weeks ago, as usual these days, I found myself playing as I followed the feeling. I was diving into a new project and felt to share it with some people. What followed was criticism from others around me, people whom I respect.

I noticed how my mind then would start to defend myself, go into self–judgment, and then start to make stories. I found myself having to justify things I was doing, things I was doing for no reason but because I loved to.

When I  placed my attention on those outside of me, trying to understand their process around my experience and what that means to me, I found myself questioning who I am being. It’s like diving into a pool full of stories. It only leaves me confused and questioning myself.

But why am I questioning myself? Why, in following whatever it is that I feel to do, am I giving my power away to what others think? Why do I become concerned about their process?

One of the things I’ve come to know is that when I am interested in how I am being perceived or what others think, I am then concerned about being accepted, appreciated or recognised in some way. These are all traits of my ego as it seeks to be loved.

Why the ego does this is because It plays a game of forgetting, by having me believe I am not that which I already am and are, love

I found that, within this experience, I was falling out of presence and thinking about things. I was doing everything but being myself. Instead, I was thinking my own experience should have been something different according to what others thought of it.

Thats when instead of being ourselves we become influenced by our stories. Instead of me just doing what felt true, I cared more about how others perceive me.

Then I wondered if I was being uncompassionate. Was I not taking into account how others were feeling?

But who are others? In truth, they are another part of me. They are playing a role in having their own direct experience, which is none of my business. When they express their own experience, if I feel discomfort or any emotional charge, I am always open to owning that.

If I feel charged or reactive to anyone’s role in my life, I always use that to embrace what I’m feeling. I don’t leave blame or credit with what I am judging in someone else. I own it by not resisting the emotion or charges that arise.

By doing so, there is no need to change anyone. There is no reason to expect them to show up differently or be anyone else other than who they are being. 

If I am not able to do this, in truth, I’m not accepting of myself.

Do you struggle with others and the way they show up? Does it leave you feeling charged or in judgment? Or, is this just something you observe and accept?

How you choose to respond to these scenarios is what affects the ability to be yourself. For if we do not see ourselves in others without judgment, we remain confined to thinking all we are is the identity looking to be loved according to our stories of yesterday or those to come.

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